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[03 Dec 2003|02:55pm] |
Yea, this is my last entry in this journal.
im over it.
Maybe ill get another one someday
but I think it should take more than the fucking internet to care about
what/how the fuck im doing
Peace.
my0wnasylum@aol.com.
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[12 Nov 2003|04:32pm] |
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OFFF TO thursday!!!!!!!!!!
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| this is all i have to say: |
[11 Nov 2003|08:13am] |
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bitches. love. me. |
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WHO'S EARS ARE AT A 0?
THATS RIGHT. MINE ARE.
OH...AND WHOS GOING TO THURSDAY TOMORROW?
THATS RIGHT. I AM!!!!
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| the boys are back in town.. |
[08 Nov 2003|06:20pm] |
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"i aint never scared!!!" |
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Last night after work Christy, Masciel and I went to Rob's getty which was pretty chill, saw some cool kids. And some *hott* boys.<3 Tonight were going to Vice since Adam is spinning!!! -which is going to be pretty awesome as well, watch out bitches, im going to dance the night away. I realllllllly really really really hope to see this kid I saw the other night, ive seen him there before, but I *really* hope to see him tonight.
...read some old friends journals last night...not really for any reason, just to see whats up. :shrug: Why hold grudges...or maybe thats just winter talking. I.Wish.I.Never.Met.You.
Im so excited to start apprenticing. (sp) God damn why am I only 17? ::waits for Apirl::
Christy: I *totally* feel you on how you think its stupid when people ignore you when other people are around. Its lame. Happened to me today at work. AND about the friends with benefits thing, I watched it too, and was going to make a post, but you covered it all. I miss that shit...or maybe I just miss the boy. :le sigh:
OH WELL! I get to see hottt hottt boys tonight and dance it up with my girls. Have a nice night everyone, even though ours will be better!
- Fab.u.lous.
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| Now and again it seems worse than it is.. |
[22 Sep 2003|11:46pm] |
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(b)r/igh/:t: I's. |
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But just dont ask about my appetite
I didnt loose it tonight,
its been gone half my life
Its jus I..
Ive been eating for you.
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[22 Sep 2003|02:57pm] |
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outkast/the love below - ghettomusick |
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The day before yesterday was good, we went to two parties...which were okay.
Yesterday at work was total crap. The first thing my brother said to me when he got there was "your hair looks like shit.." and walked away..I dont know why it made me so extremely sad, because he says things like that and put me down like that all the time. But it made me cry. /:
Then Christy and I went back to her house after work, and ate with her family, then we were going to Churchills, but we went to Roberts instead. The night was up in the air, and for some reason, im confused. And I dont think I cant handle that right now. Not today. But its too hard to stop thinking.
(Can we say vague? I can.)
I was getting ready for school this morning, I was in the shower, and I almost passed out, but I fell on the floor for a while then stood up and I was better..so I stayed home and slept until now. The only thing saving today is the new Outkast cd is out. Im going to go get it before school. Why does my life suck so much.
Wheres my Rikardo.
</3
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| IM HOLLYWOOD, YO! |
[09 Sep 2003|06:15pm] |
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silverchair live asylum clip. beautiful. |
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Attention: I can't stand the screename I have now (DotandLeKangaroo) so I changed it. It was way too boring. I PROMISE this is the LAST change for a LONG while. My new one is My0wnAsylum. The "o" is a zero, because someone had taken the other. :cracks knuckles: anyway, I picked this because if I hadnt made it obvious already, silverchair's "asylum" has gladly taken the place of what has been my favorite song, for-EVER. So alas, 'Tomorrow' is still high in the ranks, Asylum kicks it right in the tush. Add it to your buddy list. Cheers!
ATTENTION ! J'ai changé mon screename en My0wnAsylum, acclamations ! <3
Here it is, and since its on a single that I can't even find..I'll allow all of you to download it. :nod: Go on, do it. <3
like ive said before..
This is the most beautiful thing ive ever, ever heard..read..seen..understood..everything.
Contained in my cotton crib where I feel no turbulence
The ocean sleeps upon a shelf and it feeds my apathy
I can feel it in the night
Like rain upon my skin inside a winter
But you began to splinter
If I decide to recognise my thorns
Cause everytime see your face in a cloud I feel no violence
So tilt the water 'til it turns me around
To my own asylum
Dry in the day, and fading away in the night
I feel the sun before it's light
And it fades away into the night
I was afraid, I feed myself
I cleared the shelf and killed the shame
But I can feel it in the night
Collect the rocks and throw them over borders
To shake the muddy waters
And clear myself from hiding every thorn
Cause every time I see your face in a cloud I feel no violence
So tilt the water 'til it turns me around
To my own asylum
Dry in the day, and fading away in the night
And we grow, before we go over the windows
You're just a fool for him
Cause every time I see your face in a cloud I feel no violence
So tilt the water 'til it turns me around
To my own asylum
Dry in the day, and fading away
(It puts me in the most peaceful, beautiful mood, as to where I know I have nobody to love, and I cant put this beauty in myself, but thats all right, because I know that even though im going through one of the hardest times in my life right now, and I havent even realized it yet, I know everythings going to work out. Im not worried, or scared. Just strong. And nobody can take that away from me. Recognize. <3)
My 0wn Asylum [6:38 PM]: (as I repeatly play over and over again "asylum")...i do this all the time.
My 0wn Asylum [6:38 PM]: So you have now entered the "jessika is a tree hugger" mood.
In other, more "who cares" news..
- A girl from Cos. class gave me a siq french book to srudy from. Im excited.
- Im starting to go blonde tomorrow. Leave me alone about it already.
- je me fane loin...
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[29 Aug 2003|07:24pm] |
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PS- WHO THE HELL HAS MY PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER BOOK!!!! I WANT IT BACK YOU FUCKING BASTARDS!
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| Just a reminder |
[29 Aug 2003|05:21pm] |
<3<3
Just post a comment if you want to be added, and I like you.
<3<3
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| true love wooo |
[28 Aug 2003|06:02pm] |
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x my metrocard [6:00 PM]: dude i heart my birth control
DotAndLeKangaroo [6:00 PM]: LOL
DotAndLeKangaroo [6:00 PM]: dude i wish i could heart....anything.
x my metrocard [6:01 PM]: hah there's only one thing i REALLY heart
x my metrocard [6:01 PM]: and i think we both know what that is
x my metrocard [6:01 PM]: hahahaha
DotAndLeKangaroo [6:01 PM]: Me?
DotAndLeKangaroo [6:01 PM]: dude I know, you dont have to tell me
DotAndLeKangaroo [6:01 PM]: (:
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| Will you marry me?(((( CHOKE. )))) |
[27 Aug 2003|06:52pm] |
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The smiths shiela take a bow/panic |
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Louder Than Bombs day = today.
Why must Dillard make the beeping sound with his mouth that the microwave makes EVERY TIME HE USES IT?
See also:
::Microwave beeps:::
Dillard: "BEEP BEEP BEEP!"
Later on...
:::Microwave beeps:::
Dillard: "BEEP!!!! BEEPP!!!! BEEP!!"
thats quite obnoxious.
:shrug: whatever. time to go hang out with a cute boy. :swoon:
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| We. always. know. beforehand. |
[25 Aug 2003|02:47am] |
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About to go watch silverchair video. <3<3 |
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Tonight couldnt have been better, met a new girl I work with, shes fucking awesomeeeee - with THAT many e's, i swear. <3 Then after working all day with hott mofo's, my brother and a few others (<3<3<3<3<3<3) smoked out in front of my house (I FINALLY FUCKING SMOKED WITH MY BROTHER EVERYONE!! OWWW SKI SKI) and wow mama, this kid is one fine mofo.
How are small, short (high) kisses the best?
Omg whos happy?
<- that girl. :swoon:
<3 <3 <3
::smile:::
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| the aftertaste is going to b.r.e.a.k my heart. |
[23 Aug 2003|11:36am] |
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Ben Lee - aftertaste |
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Ps- Ok, the link I posted in my LAST entry...this is what needs to be done, yes I know the site is not in English!
Heres the directions...a little easier, I guess. lol.
1.) Go to the link.
2.) Right click.
3.) Click "SAVE AS"
4.) It will start to download automatically.
If youre wondering what the hell it is. Download it and it will change your life. Dont get mad if you dont like it, because if you dont, you have no room to live. Cheers.
<3
(Just got back from a work meeting at 8:00 and everyone was all tired and still in their sleep clothes, natural beauty is something beautiful. This kid is something ho*ttt*.)
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| Fuck. |
[10 Aug 2003|12:17pm] |
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Lou is having open heart surgery tomorrow.
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| Most of all.. |
[05 Aug 2003|08:06pm] |
I miss going to parties.
I miss the old days with Liz.
I miss getting drunk.
I miss my old friends.
I miss going to Barnes and Noble.
I miss the rain.
I miss the apartment.
I miss making fun of the stupid girls there.
I miss Chelsea, Meghan and Brittany coming there every night already high.
I miss sitting in the closet with Batman talking about how stupid girls are.
I miss 20 people sitting in that closet talking and smoking.
I miss drinking the "root beer."
I miss the table at lunch.
I miss not knowing what the mystery meat was.
I miss being drunk with Skyler.
I miss tipping over porto-potties with my old friends.
I miss last summer.
I miss how I didnt know any better.
I miss cutting all my hair off for the first time.
I miss going to shows.
I miss dancing with my old friend.
I miss people coming to my window at 4 in the morning.
I miss drunken talks with Josh and Rikki.
I miss sitting in the hot tub repeating "jaws urine lipstick" over and over.
I miss getting coffee with Meredith.
I miss playing uno.
I miss 80's night.
I miss my car.
I miss the question book with Kris.
I miss my best friend.
I miss having true friends.
I miss going to the mall every day.
I miss calling every day on my break at work.
I miss crying because I hated being without you.
I miss the fact that...I probably shouldnt miss any of this.
But I do.
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[26 Jul 2003|12:17am] |
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Warped tour is tomorrow....
HALLLAAA!!!! <3
Seemed as though I was way more excited last year. Probably because the bands were way better.
Im feeling extremely weak right now..I need to go lay down.
nighty.
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FEEL IT ... wow I havent said that in a long time.
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| Little man being erased . . . . |
[20 Jul 2003|06:09pm] |
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Radiohead - punchup at a wedding. = me. |
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Since I am now living in Miami..I have a new screename here. Its DotAndLeKangaroo. EVERYONE ADD IT <3. Youre probably asking what the hell does that name mean? Well...when I was a kid there was this movie that I was obsessed with, problem is, it scared the shit out of me. But I kept watching it. It was about this little girl named Dot and she got lost in the woods and was saved my this mother Kangaroo. But its wierd because..the backround was real life, but they were animated. Hmm..
So I tried "DotAndTheKangaroo" but its too many letters, so instead of the word "the" in english, I put it in French. "le."
...yep.
Today was okay, then I got home and my dad called and I answered and hes like "Hey!! When ya comming home!" im like..."I have no idea" then gave the phone to my sister (she had to talk to him) and I just started to cry..I cant even type this without getting really sad. The ONLY reason im so sad is because I dont want him to be lonely. I cried so much I got sick. He still doesnt know. Oh my god..poor dad...damnit this makes me so sad. I can feel it in my chest, it hurts. /:
.tear.
iloveyoudad
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[19 Jul 2003|06:35pm] |
If anyone is coming to the Warped Tour down here (pompano) LET ME KNOW I want to go sooo bad but nobody is going to the show down here!!!! ASAP!
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Jessika
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